those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts.

rachel carson
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20130126-221624.jpgmy longing towards wholeness means having reserves of strength (and peace and laughter and calm and patience and vulnerability and ease and…).

I want this for my children too. when the temptation to keep eating goldfish crackers and watching hulu nearly won, I looked at my zombie eyed daughter, I felt my own bleh and we went to the creek.
20130126-222716.jpgthe top layer of the creek was melting…the leaves once frozen in it were slipping out of place…there were perfect leaf indentations. 20130126-222726.jpgit was downright cool. and beautiful. and worth contemplating. 20130126-222732.jpgI have to believe we built up some reserves there with cold air, wet fingers, bright sunshine…

now I sit in my bed under feather ticks from austria in a room cooled all day by a window open. 20130126-222700.jpgunder the blanket of my oma in an aired out room like my nan…

more reserves.