those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts.

rachel carson
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my longing towards wholeness means having reserves of strength (and peace and laughter and calm and patience and vulnerability and ease and…).

I want this for my children too. when the temptation to keep eating goldfish crackers and watching hulu nearly won, I looked at my zombie eyed daughter, I felt my own bleh and we went to the creek.
the top layer of the creek was melting…the leaves once frozen in it were slipping out of place…there were perfect leaf indentations. it was downright cool. and beautiful. and worth contemplating. I have to believe we built up some reserves there with cold air, wet fingers, bright sunshine…

now I sit in my bed under feather ticks from austria in a room cooled all day by a window open. under the blanket of my oma in an aired out room like my nan…

more reserves.