i can list things i’m grateful for and things i lament…and maybe they are one in the same:

we decided to take eliza to the doctor; no appointment needed at immediate care.
i hadn’t been there before, it’s a nice and tidy system.
we don’t know the nurses or doctor but they were so kind and child friendly.
she kept talking and smiling, had a coughing fit, finished her story (this is how its been for a few days now)
after checking levels and temp (all normal) and ear-checking and lung-listening (not normal),
she is on antibiotics for pneumonia in her left lung (!) and ear infections.
jerry stayed home with micah and eliza.
i found out micah started throwing up while i was gone.
sweet mother.

but
we have a home.
we had money for tonight.
we have hot water to do laundry.
we can figure out how to take care of the kids tomorrow.

but
jerry has conferences all evening tomorrow…i’m going to need a break.